As I walked up from the beach today, I overheard a conversation between a couple. I had noticed them as I trekked upwards: he was kinda looking off into the distance appearing really apathetic and she was staring at him almost longingly. As I walked past them, and in between my own gasps for breath, I heard her pleading with him, “If only you would let yourself trust me…”. I wasn’t able to hear his response. I decided stopping and staring would not only be blatantly obvious, but also extremely rude (yes, I can monitor myself at times!). But, I find it hard to believe he really had anything to say in response to that. I mean, really, what is there to say?
Instantly I started analyzing relationships. I felt frustrated that she felt the need to practically beg him to trust her; although it’s possible she had done nothing to betray his trust (of course, I also realize there is a chance she has). I wondered why we spend so much of our time in relationships attempting to build trust with the other. I mean, why can’t we go into each relationship with a blind trust? Why do we allow people who have betrayed our trust impede our future relationships?
Then, I had a thought. One that seemed directly from the Lord…He just repeated what the girl had been saying: “If only you would let yourself trust Me.” I had spent the time at the beach trying to come to terms and make sense of some big things going on in my life lately. I felt the need to get some quality alone time with the Lord to get some answers. But, really, why am I in such desperate need of answers? Why do I let the decision about next year dominate my thoughts? Why am I anxious about work, my weight, my commitments, and life in general? All of these worries are direct reflections of the fact I am not putting all of my trust in Him. I am attempting to take things upon myself and that is where the stress comes in. I cannot handle it all. The beauty is, He can. Now, if only I can allow myself to trust Him unapologetically. Completely. Entirely. Totally. Thoroughly.
See, being nosey can have its positives afterall!