I think this phenomena of the “microwave generation” is negatively impacting all aspects of our American life. For those of you who haven’t heard of this phrase, it’s basically referring to the fact that we have become accustomed to things instantaneously rather than waiting for something in its own time.
There are several things that are leading to this post: conversations, reflections, reading, and more than likely a huge influence is the time-it is 1:30am and I am exhausted, but keep thinking about this thought I am going to try to put into words.
We are created in God’s image. I believe the creation all around us reflects God’s character-in this, I am also referring to seasons, plants, harvests, nature, etc. It breaks my heart that so much of our image of God is being jaded by the culture we are surrounded by-this so-called “microwave generation” mentality. There is a time where a carrot is nothing but a tiny thing under the ground. In looking at the ground, it sure doesn’t seem like there’s much going on-especially not something actively being created that could potentially help sustain us, nourish us, and replenish us. Oftentimes in seasons of loneliness, frustration, and dissatisfaction in our lives, we expect a quick fix. Rather, I expect a quick fix. I don’t want to go through the negative to get to the positive. I just want it all positive. And right now. Or even yesterday.
I have been so encouraged by reading Animal, Vegetable, Miracle and through conversations at my Bible Study tonight at how much God’s character truly is revealed through His creation. I have been disillusioned by this “need” for busyness, and doing (we are human beings afterall, right? Not human doings), and productivity as measured by what I can mark of my list. I pray that I can be more sensitive to His desire for my life-rather than my society’s desire for my life. That I can sit still and bask in the knowledge that HE I S GOD. I desire to reflect Him in all that I do-not just at the times that are convenient, or when I feel like it, or when it’s my desire. Different things are in season at different times. I want to wholeheartedly embrace what I am experiencing in this season. A season of singleness (despite my desire to have children), a season of transition (despite my desire for stability), a season of relying on Him (despite my desire to map it all out), a season to learn and grown (despite my desire to be complacent), a season of learning to slow down (despite my desire to go, go, go) and a season of nobody commenting on my blog (despite my desire to have hundreds of comments daily) ;-).
What season are you in?
So, my mom and I just enjoyed a leisurely walk up to the grocery store to buy some goodies in preparation for tonight’s dinner. It has been so beautiful out lately and it makes me very satisfied in my decision to stay in SoCal at least one more year! Becca chose a meal out for us from Cooking Light, “Mexican Stuffed Shells”, and as I sit here on the computer typing away my mom is attempting to teach my sister how to cook-a new life goal she has before leaving to San Fran in a few weeks! Despite a minor injury on my mom’s index finger that was quickly remedied with a band-aid, all seems to be going quite well!
These nights have definitely come to be some of my favorite nights! Every week, my mom makes her way over here to spend some quality girl time. Last week we went to see “Sex and the City” (hilarious!) and enjoy The Outback. This week, it’s some down and dirty time in the kitchen with Game Six playing in the background! I will definitely miss these nights when I’m down in the SD, but I am grateful for the opportunity to be sharing them now!
I have now been instructed to start making some guacamole, so I guess I better get back to work and stop all my “reflecting” that they are now both making fun of me for. Out of love, I am sure. And I need to jump back on my bike to grab some Tostito’s whole grain chips that we forgot.
So, stealing Stephanie Anderson’s words: “Yeah, I’m kind of a big deal.”
As of about three hours ago, I completed my first triathlon! After the prompting of my friend Latarsha, I decided to sign up for the Disneyland Triathlon. I mean really, how threatening can Disneyland be?! My intuitions proved themselves true. When my alarm went off this morning at 4:30 am (after having friends over until 10:30 last night), I immediately questioned why I had convinced myself it was a good idea not to work out this last week and how I ever got myself to believe this was a good idea. However, after getting all of my gear together and riding Mellow Yellow 1.8 miles down to Disney from my mom’s, my mind was slowly changed. Seeing all the women around me (it was an all women’s tri, something I’d highly recommend) was encouraging and inspiring! I even teared up yesterday after seeing about 10 of the 100 survivors (breast cancer) come up to the stage–and most were under 40. If they could do it, so could I!
After spending thirty minutes in line for the port-a-potties, I put on my swim cap and walked over to the herding area before swimming .35 miles in California Adventure’s Paradise Lagoon (supposedly the brown murkiness is due to food coloring…which I kinda believe now after cleaning out my ears!). We then ran and jumped on our bikes to do a 10 mile trek around the Disneyland resort…twice! I definitely rang my bike’s little bell a few time just to make myself laugh. Mellow Yellow also received many compliments along the way. I might have been a little intimidated by all of the beautiful new bikes surrounding us, but Mellow Yellow was quite confident and made quite a showing for his first time in a triathlon! My mom and Jim were snapping pictures all along the way and cheering me on! Thankfully, I found a friendly pace partner for my 2.5 mile run, because I don’t know if my body really wanted to do it. I told myself I really didn’t want to walk and had set a goal to finish within two hours. Patrick, my mom, and Latarsha were there at the finish line cheering me in!
The results are in:
Overall Rank: 745 of 1332 (about the 55 %ile)
So, not too shabby if I do say so myself! I am now sitting on my mom’s couch-freshly showered yet still wearing my medal. We just finished eating a delicious post-tri meal of monkey bread, fresh fruit, and eggs with spinach, mushrooms, sun dried tomatoes, and cheese. Delish! My mom and Patrick are already napping-I guess cheering people on wears you out! My adrenaline is rapidly leaving my body and I think I might lay my head down as well!
Thanks to Kristen, Steph, Bekah, and Irene for hanging out last night! I had a great time! Thanks to Latarsha for encouraging me to do this! And, thanks to mom, Jim, and Patrick for making it to the race to cheer me on! And, to sister, for coming out for post-party celebrations a.k.a. napping!
And, by the way-I will be wearing my medal constantly through tomorrow evening. Yes, I just finished a nap and, you guessed it, I wore the medals.
Also, I have two more potential triathlons lined up this season for those of you interested! There is one in Pleasonton (Bay Area) on September 27th and another one in San Diego on October 19th! (Also, on August 24th there is one in Santa Barbara, but I have prior commitments-possibly useful info for all you SB folk!)
So, my students new ploy for making me feel guilty is constantly reminding me that I am “leaving them for Jesus!”. Although there are some pangs of guilt, I am also glad that they understand why I’m going…even if they don’t get it quite yet! I keep telling them that one day they will understand when they look back on it!
It is now relatively official: I called today to inform the Women’s Program director at Denton Bible Church that I will definitely not be attending their program in August. It was a tough decision since it is a program I have wanted to do since becoming a Christian in 2000. However, I am finally back close to my family and have formed a group of solid friends that I am not quite ready to leave yet!
So, as of this point, I will be applying to the Horizon School of Evangelism in San Diego and see what the Lord does there! I have no idea where I’ll be living, how I’ll be making money, what I’ll do, etc. And, it’s really exciting! I am so used to planning out my life, it’s nice to be at a point to fully rely upon the Lord to provide! I know He’ll do way more than I could even plan anyways!
A few hours ago, I returned from the fabulous state of Texas (please no derrogatory comments here in regards to my personal opinion…ahem, J-Jax). I had hoped my sister would be able to pick me up, but due to the call of work, she was unable to do so. Thankfully, my supervisor from The Kelter Center picked me up and we headed up to work. I wouldn’t want to have any downtime! 🙂
The plane ride was relatively uneventful. Due to being totally knocked out, I missed all opportunities for any drinks and/or snacks which was somewhat disappointing. However, I did exchange one email address with the lady I sat next to. I am expecting a copy of her wedding vows emailed to me shortly. 🙂
So, a little recap of the trip to Texas that was wonderful, busy, fun, and always a little sad while taking a trip to the gravesite.
- Lady Eagle Reunion Friday night: Seriously, these girls all live within a 30 mile radius but hardly ever get together!! Made for lots of laugh while drinking, eating, and catching up with some teammates (Natalie, Vilma, Shannan, Deedra, Karen) and Coaches (Slinker and Dziuk)
- Late Nite Friday with Didi and Beth coming to Natalie’s for some talk time!
- Early morning Saturday at Cracker Barrel with Beth, “Joshie”, and Aidan…followed by a pedicure with my new buddy Aidan on my lap!
- Saturday Wedding!!! Monica and Terry tied the knot…and I caught the bouquet!!! Surprise, surprise 😉 My FIFTH one! Haha! (Thanks for the pep talk, Becky)
- Headed to Aubrey Sunday…saved a turtle’s life in the process and got some quality time with Alisha including church, lunch, guitar hero, watching her senior portfolio, and picture taking!
- Good times wandering back through Denton (thanks to my personal driver, Natalie) and then visiting with Erika and meeting baby Danae!
- Finished the night at Ginny and Kingsley’s BEAUTIFUL home-complete with games, ice cream, talking til 2am, and Monkey Bread in the am!
It was so great catching up with everyone and creating more wonderful memories of my times in Texas. That place will always hold a very special place in my heart! I love and miss all of y’all!
Although I do realize we have nine weeks left living together (granted, four of the weekends I will be out of town, one she will be gone, and two others we have visitors), moving has been on my mind a lot lately. This, of course, is bittersweet. I will miss having the wonderful experience of living with my sister once again– as an adult. What a beautiful time it’s been!
The Top Ten Things I Will Miss:
10. Having largest laundry pile competitions (sometimes taking over half of room’s floor space…and it’s usually clean laundry!)
9. Living in a mutually acceptable pig sty before going on a cleaning binge (Although I don’t believe she’s ever dusted or mopped the floor)
8. Late night TV viewing-and having someone tell me when it’s time for me to go to sleep despite trying to fight it!
7. Her baking: red velvet cupcakes, rasberry bars, blueberry delights, etc.
6. Who doesn’t want to live with a “little gecko”?!
5. “Special Ed” sister moments (i.e. my dress try on, forgetting trash bags, etc.)
4. Girls nights with mom-learning to cook, napping, talking, etc.
3. Constant companion and sounding board of the day’s new ideas and funny experiences (usually student or work related)
2. Constant text message check-ins
1. Getting to come home and scream out, “Sister!”
Things I Can Do Without:
1. Constant tandem parking exchanges
2. Build up of dishes in the sink
3. Memories of the dang rabbits
And, of course there’s always the memories including running out of gas, dying during 24 hour fitness classes, locking keys in respective cars, breathalizer situations, airport deliveries, late night snacks, etc.
I love you sister! It’s been an honor and a delight to share these last 15 months with you! You are AWESOME!!! And I will miss you dearly :’-(
*If any of my faithful readers have the opportunity to live with their sibling again as an adult, I would highly recommend it!*
I’m heading to Texas on Friday morning (really more like Thursday night since I’m leaving so early…sorry, sister!). Going to yet another wedding that I’m highly looking forward to! 🙂
It will also be a good time to seek out where God wants me next year…I’d almost rather have doors closed than having to choose a “better” option (I know you can empathize, KD)! Most of you know this, some of you don’t: I’m 99% sure I’ll be moving to San Diego next year to do a Discipleship program at a non-denominational church down there. Please continue to pray for me as I commit to a decision that is led by my desire to serve and honor Him!